The End needs to be now

How long is dis road ahead??
How far am I from da end??
How much longer do I have to go??
How much longer do I have to bear dis??
Grant me one wish my lord….
Grant me da power to abandon dis road
Grant me one wish my lord.
Grant me da power to call it quits weneva I want to
Dis is a tiring journey my lord
And u took away my only companion…
The only companion I eva wanted…
I’ve heard ppl say…”every 1 deserves a second chance….”
I ask u my lord….y wasn’t dis true for her??
Y wasn’t she granted her second chance??
Did u think that she had erred??
She had erred to be my companion??
I may not be your favorite child……
I may not be da one u liked….
But isn’t a child a child after all??
I may have wronged u sum way…but was it really dat bad??
Justice I thot was equal for all…
It was I who had erred….den y did she have to leave??
Dis journey wid out my companion…
is waay more harsh den death
but maybe…..maybe u wanted it dis way…..
u wanted me to suffer
to suffer da curse of knowing….
Dat my luv had died coz of no one else but me
But lemme ask u something ,my lord
Maybe U were da one to show us da lite of day..
Maybe U were da one to pave our journey on dis very road
But how does dis give u da right……
Da right to end da road for sum1….weneva u want to????
To end dis journey...I don’t have da mite
I may have wronged u my lord….
But dis journey I wanna continue no more
Grant me one wish my lord
I wish to c da end of dis road now
I have suffered ‘nuf my lord
I cant bare it no more…don’t u think…I’ve had ‘nuf??
I beg of u my lord…free me
Free me from ur shackles of life

tyme.....da best healer

life goes on my friend
that’s wat the great ones say
life goes on my friend
dats wat the journey of life says
u meet new frnds
u part ways with ol’ ones
one of em cud’ve been ur ol’ lost flame
one of em cud’ve been the person who u’d fancy
one o f em cud’ve been well just a buddy
with tyme my friend…..old wounds r healed
with tyme my friend…..many memories b’come faded
with tyme my friend….u start living in the present
u 4get abt ur past, u live for the present , u think of the future
but wat happens ?....wat happens wen u stumble upon ur past?
The past that showed u the way to the present…….
The past that is paving ur way to the future
It’s a sickening feeling wen u think …..
Wen u think of the ppl whom u’ve left behind
They say …it’s a rats race out there…
And u’ve got to win dat race…..
It doesn’t matter who u left behind
It doesn’t matter who u stabbed from behind
All dat matters is dat….u always have to stay ahead
Ahead of dem all….ur loved ones,u frnds,ur foes…
But when u think abt it….answer dis….is dis wat u really wanted?
Is dis the lyfe dat u really wanted……
U might say yes…..coz maybe u have no choice
But temme ..then y does it hurt wen u think of ur past
When u think of ‘em all whom u’ve left behind…..
It’s a rats race they say…..but did u really have to win
U may have won the race
But then y does it hurt wen ur past catches up wid u…..
It shudnt have hurt u…coz as they say…lyfe moves on
Tyme heals the greatest wounds….then y do some wounds still bleed?
Temme sumthin den…..has lyfe really moved on??

i wish

Days have passed
Life has changed
I used to watch u from my room’s window
I used to watch u looking at urself at the mirror
I used to think that sumday I’m gonna tell u
I used to think that I’d take my time….my own sweet time
But the days had passed and u were gone
U were gone and I still hadn’t told u
I wish I hadn’t taken my time
Coz I knew that I cud never win against time……….
I used to be happy those days
Now I aint anymore
I cant believe that dis moment has come’
I cant believe that I have to say dis
I aint a person who’d actually say dis
But baby here it goes: “I’m sorry and I’ll always be”
I’d been waiting all my life to say that I loved u
But I guess that waits gonna be an eternal one
I really wished that I cud bare my mind to u
But I guess that aint gonna happen no more
I really wish I cud tell u how much I loved u
I really wish that I hadn’t waited so long
I know that u’ve already gone
But I guess its now my turn to go
I wish that dis day would’ve never come
I wish I cud’ve told u
I wish…oh I really wish
I wish that I wouldn’t have to say goodbyeI wish …oh I really wish…………….

untitled as of now....coz its yet to be finished

I woke up in the middle of the night

And saw her sleeping by my side

That innocent face of hers, I’m gonna miss

Those beautiful lips of hers that I used to kiss

As I bend down to kiss my love for the last time

I know that leaving her like this would be a crime

But my mind tells me that it better now than later

That I should leave her now rather than cause pain to her later

If I leave her now, she’ll end up hating me

But I guess that this is better than she ending up mourning me

I know that my days are coming to an end

That I’m fighting a lost battle that is soon gonna end

My messed up life

Walking down the street
Remembering my last nights feat
My life is such a mess and I dunno what to do
In my dream last night
I saw myself in a fight

But hey!
The person that I’m fighting is no one else but me
I dunno what I’m doing, I dunno what is happening
I dunno what I always see

A car comes crashing by
It hits me and goes by
I lay there on the street
With no one else but me

I dunno what I’m doing, I dunno what is happening
I dunno why do these always happens to me

Laying there all on my own
Listening to the doctor drone
I can’t help but think
That my life could be over in a blink

But hey!
What is that I feel?
Something that I never wanted to feel

Looking down on my body still
I realize that I’m dead
My life was finally over
As I kept moving away from my bed
There were tears in my eyes
But here was a smile on my lips
What is that I hear?
May be a call from god or from Satan
May be a call for a journey through another messed up life!

ALONE

Sitting there all alone
I realize, in this world I’m on my own
No one is there to fight for me
The dear ones end I had to see.
I ask myself-why did I live?
It was them who had more to give.
To the world I say- you lost a lot,
to them I say-honored for your company which I had got.
God only knows where they have been hurled,
they will be missed in this world.